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I need to be more mindful

I’m not being mindful. I’m falling back to using food. I need to write more but don’t seem to have the time. I think things are slowly coming together, but my life is still far from being manageable. I need to seriously evaluate how I handle the relationships in my life. I feel like a …
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Bits and Pieces

I`ve spent over ten years stuffing my face with food instead of dealing with the emotions behind why I was eating.  and now I`m getting better at not stuffing my face and letting the emotions surface.  And its scary and it hurts like hell and I`m breaking down.  I don`t have time to be everything …
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a;osin

This nervous twitch is getting worse.  My title to this post is indicative of that.  I didn’t know what title to give this post, and I just spazzed, and that’s what came out…along with me turning on some other weird screen. So that’s what will stay. I see the doctor in an hour.  I don’t …
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I can’t handle this

I had a break down on Thursday. I was having a pretty good week. Just came back from a group therapy session that went well. I felt like I was getting a good grasp of this Intuitive Eating thing. And I am. It’s a success, I know. But I can’t handle everything else. I’ve been …
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Juggling

I can’t hold all these balls in the air. They are going to come crashing down any second. I’m only me.  Me used to be able to handle all the balls. But today, I can’t. I don’t want to.  I feel my inner child rebelling. I don’t want to feel what I feel.  I want …
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Ah. Here is something I can do on the subway

I really notice a difference when I stop blogging. I become less aware and am more likely to get down on myself. Despite my successes. I’m sitting on the subway for the first time in about a year and a half. I’m spilling over into the other seat and the poor guy next to me …
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I overate tonight, but I don’t feel that guilty

I have to go back to work tomorrow.  My commute is over an hour each way, and it means I’ll be lucky to see my daughter for two or three hours a day during the week.  It is stressing me out.  I am looking for something closer to home, but I also don’t want to …
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Do things for myself?

One of the reasons I’m having the problems I have, I think, is because I give (or maybe gave) so much of myself to others, but wasn’t getting the same in return.  I wasn’t getting the connection I wanted.  While I take/took care of everything and everyone around me, no one was/is taking care of …
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I survived the Holidays

Well, it’s January 2nd and I’m the same person I was about ten days ago. But the difference is that I managed to survive though the holidays without being obsessed about food and my weight. Well I had some help since I had two wisdom teeth out. Overall though, I had some great successes the …
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What would your “day after” look like?

This post was inspired by effortlessly perfect ‘s blog post, The Day After . : I don’t know if what I hit was rock bottom.  But I know I was in that position.  Waiting for rock bottom, or some major life event to kick me into recovery…although most of that time I didn’t know or …
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