I am going to work my way through each Intuitive Eating Principle and where I am with each one. As I master one, I will move on to the next. Or then go back a step or two, but I’m going to start at the begining because it’s the one that drew me to this philosophy in the first place.
REJECT THE DIET MENTALITY
I have never been successful on a diet. I think the longest I lasted was three months. The most I ever lost on a diet was probalby around 30 lbs. Isn’t that great? Sure, it would be if I could have kept it off.
Diet’s are not sustainable. The very nature of a diet sets you up to fail and then feel like shit about your self, so you start eating again.
The craziest diet I ever tried was the Dr. Poon Metabolic Diet. (No Dr. Bernstein for me, I was never that insane). This one was actually recommended to me by my DOCTOR!!! OMG, from what I’ve learned since then, I can’t BELIEVE a medical professional would recommend (let alone lead) this type of diet. I ate only MEAT and a few green vegetables (lettuce, green peppers, celery) for a month! And I also could have no salt! I lost 20 lbs, and then started eating other things because I couldn’t stand the restriction. Of course I felt like a complete failure for not being able to stick to it. Luckily I managed to get pregnant just after I ‘fell off the wagon’.
My mother constantly makes it seem like all I have to do is eat less and exercise more, and that is how simple it is. But it`s not when you have an eating disorder is it?
I actually haven’t been on that many ‘diets’. I don’t think I ever really believed in them. I think I always had the thought in the back of my mind “Why can’t I just eat normally?” But on a diet I would go, because I couldn’t just eat normally. Maybe sticking to this plan, or writing everything down, or counting calories or points will help me lose weight. But ultimately I couldn’t STICK to it for very long. It was just too much work. And if other things in my life came up, it just compounded the problem.
And then I felt even worse than before, gained it all back and then some…
I am so done with diets. It was a relief to walk into my first therapy session and have someone affirm for me that diets don’t work, and I don’t need to go on any more diets.
It’s still not a walk in the park though. The stuff I’m going to have to deal with is so much harder than dieting. So much more real. So much more painful.
I’ll get through it though.
I’m proud that I’ve rejected the diet mentality and that I’m doing my best to fight off those who keep trying to push it on me.